I’ve had this site for over a year now, and have yet to make a single post. My life is a far cry from those in fairy tales so I created Mama Ever After in order to document my journey striving to become the perfect fairy tale mom. The thing is, I’ve been suffering from a very severe case of “perfection paralysis,” and ironically, a year later I’m still more like captain of the Hot Mess Express than I am that put-together soccer Mom in pearls and Hunter boots- you know who you are. I’ve laid awake so many nights thinking of ideas I want to incorporate into this blog, only to wake up overwhelmed with the nuts and bolts of how to do it.
Last night was no exception. However, what I decided was that rather than bury my head in the sand for another year, I’m just going to start. Simple enough, right? Like Nike says, just do it; so I’m going to, thanks Nike. So here it is, my first blog post. No witty title, no perfect “first post” subject…I’m not actually even sure what the page will look like when I click the link to launch the site! But I’m going to do it. Today. It’s scary and makes me feel vulnerable. The blog may not start out the exact way I had envisioned, but I’ll get there; and I’m going to be proud of the journey!
What I realized last night (fair warning: this is for sure a stretch of the very overtired mind as it was churning around 2am, but it clicked for me) is that this blog has so far been a very uncomfortable representation of my life, or at least how I’ve been living it recently. And I’m not too proud of that. I’m full of great ideas (read: ok, ideas that I think are great, time will tell!) but I constantly drown them in excuses rather than finding the time, confidence, and courage to explore their possibilities. And I’m tired of that. Not only am I tired of it, I’m embarrassed. I’ve been talking about ways to become my “best self” for way too long with no action. PSA: Please don’t get me wrong, I love myself and my life – I am SO incredibly lucky and I know it! I am stupidly optimistic and obnoxiously positive, so no lessons on self love are needed. I am wildly happy in my self deprecating ways, but am not ignorant to the possibility of self improvement!
My “best self” is a former Victoria’s Secret model trying to life each day to the fullest, get back into shape after having kids, and figure out where all my time and money goes- because I can tell you there’s not much left of either at the end of the day! I am super into a healthy, whole foods, paleo/nutrient dense diet; and I aspire to commit to it for a more substantial length of time than a weekend! Also helpful might be exercising. Like, at all. I love travel and adventures, and I need to figure out how to start adventuring again with three kids in tow. I’ll be sharing recipes and meal plans, adventures big and small, ways and products I’ve found to make life easier, and I hope some inspiration!
So this blog will be my way of documenting my adventures toward becoming my best self; and laughing pretty much the whole way there. Will it be perfect? Nope, not even close! But I’ve decided I don’t care, because at least I’m doing it, I’m taking action, I’m not just talking about doing something anymore. The truth is, much like this blog, my life is a work in progress. Here’s what I can promise: I’m going to say I’m doing my best and really mean it. I’m going to post as much as I can, and try to make you smile even if you think my content is crap. I’m going to allow myself to be vulnerable and react to my mistakes with grace; but also I’m going to laugh at myself. A lot. You’re welcome to join!